A novel-diary that lay in the archive for almost eighty years returns to the reader - along with the story of its ban. At the meeting, we will discuss how the manuscript was found, what is confirmed by documents, and why the honest voice of a soldier about captivity, escape, and occupation sounds stronger than any chronicle - and compels us to speak anew about memory. How does war sound when described by a person who does not yet know the ending? At the meeting, we will talk about the novel-diary of Fyodor Lvovich Kandiba - a text that the author completed in the spring of 1944. The book was ready for printing, but the release was halted. The manuscript was sent to the archive and left there for decades. Researcher of the defense of Moscow and the Moscow militia Anatoly Voronin will tell how the manuscript was found and why its return is important today. You will learn how the genre of a diary in war is structured, what documents confirm in the narrative, and what details help to see life under occupation without familiar slogans. A separate conversation will focus on the Vyazma encirclement, the escape from the column of prisoners, and the road to mother in Kharkov: in these episodes, fatigue, fear, shame, and perseverance can be heard. The lecturer will show where the author writes about combat losses and where he writes about how a personality collapses when hunger, violence, and coercion operate around. An important line of the meeting is the history of the text as an object of memory. Why did the head of the Soviet Information Bureau Alexander Shcherbakov halt the manuscript? What conversation about the war turned out to be undesirable in the autumn of 1944? This event is for those interested in history through personal testimonies: readers of military prose, researchers of memory culture, students of the humanities, and for anyone who finds it important to understand how a person preserves themselves in a situation of choice and pressure. The format combines a lecture and a presentation of the publication, so there will be both context and the "living fabric" of the text.